Do you ever find yourself wishing you felt more than you did for a person?
There are many occasions where you feel too much for a person but I’m talking about the opposite. Wanting to feel more for someone because they seem like the right choice. Let me give you a better example.
Say you meet a person and you really click. You joke easily, can really divulge into the deeper things in life, even flirt constantly, and most importantly, you can really just be yourself. Everything just feels right and you really want to be with this person and they want to be with you… except, the right feelings aren’t there. What I mean by the right feeling is the romantic chemistry.
Sure, you have chemistry and it’s great but it’s not the type that makes you feel more. It’s the friendship type (Side note: I do believe that you could have a soul mate and that person be just a friend). You want the feeling of looking at that person and seeing/wanting a future with them. Instead you only feel like they are a good friend to you and you’re glad they’re in your life. You want them to stay in it for as long as possible but as just a friend.
But you want to feel more, have those thoughts of forever. My question is, if you’re only feeling platonic feelings for a person, can it eventually result in falling in love with them? I feel like when you truly have romantic feelings for someone, it’s pretty difficult to not act upon in some way, shape, or form. It’s definitely not something you have to force yourself to do. And perhaps that’s what would happen with that person you have platonic feelings for. Another question I have is if you do want a relationship with the person you just click with, should you give it a chance? Why not right? If it’s something you both want, you should absolutely try. I like the idea of things working out if both parties are putting in their best effort forward but I’m not sure if that’s always works out. How hard and how long should you try to build a romantic relationship before it’s time to call it quits? Forcing relationships is never a good idea but where exactly is the line drawn? No one likes to give up on something they want but it’s hard to step back and admit that maybe things aren’t working because they’re not supposed to be.
I have these questions because there’s someone in my life I feel very strongly for but those feelings have never been anything beyond friendship. However, I’m often thinking about how easy it would be to just date them. At least I know I wouldn’t be unhappy, you know? But it feels like I would be settling…
I was talking to a friend about it. If I were forty, fifty something years old without a partner, I wouldn’t mind being with this person because I already know that I enjoy their company. Even if I never fall in love with them, I would be fine with spending the rest of my life with them at that point. Right now, I’m twenty-years-old and I want fall in love with someone that will fall for me. I don’t want to be someone a person settles for when there could be someone else out there perfect for them.
I know that’s holding out hope for something that might not happen but I can’t see myself being tied down to a person that I could probably be with but never fall for. It may just be because I’m stubborn. I don’t really know what might happen should I ever open myself up to experiment but it’s not something I’ve wanted up to this point. Yes, there are many times I think to myself that I should just try. That something amazing could come out of something I didn’t expect. The best and worst things in life come unexpectedly but you won’t know unless you just go for it. But despite thinking that way, I always end up with the same thought. If it hasn’t happened already, will it happen? Do I want to put my time and effort on a person I’m already hesitant about? And am I hesitant because I’m afraid of what might happen? Or am I afraid of being right and not feeling more for them than I already do? I wish I had the answers. I just know that I don’t want to go into a relationship that I’m not confident about. I want to actually care whether or not it works out. Not a fall back kind of relationship, if that makes sense. I would probably even half-ass my efforts in the relationship. Continue treating them as a friend rather than a real partner in life.
All I can say is, right now, that’s not in the cards for me. I get along with the person very well and I enjoy their company, I even have a lot of love for them but it doesn’t change the fact that I don’t see them as my person. Hell, I freeze up sometimes because I don’t really know what to expect. I’m unattached right now. And the person knows me well enough to understand that I won’t take things seriously when I’m not attached. And what I mean by attached is being in a relationship or being involved with someone. A kiss is just a kiss and sex can just be sex. Recently though, I’m constantly wary of getting too close. While we click and are really good friends, I feel like I’m constantly on guard. I don’t know if it’s because I want them to try something or if I’m hoping they don’t. I genuinely like the person as a friend.
There are plenty of times I think I’m overthinking things and that I should just throw caution into the wind. Caution in relationships is good though, isn’t it? It’s hard to look past the platonic feelings. You get used to seeing a person a certain way and sometimes the way you see them changes naturally. But I feel like when you’re trying too hard to see someone a certain way, it doesn’t work out. I’m not sure if that platonic feeling can change and developed into more with time. What I do know is that I’m not ready to find out.