Escape

I’m pretty sure everyone can relate to wanting to escape your life for while. Sometimes life can seem like it’s going well and still you feel like you need a break from it.

I’ve always been a fan of running away from my problems. It can take form in many different ways. Whether it’s focusing school or work, basically putting your time and energy in just about everything but your personal problems that you need to prioritize. My favorite way is to focus on others. If I focus on other people’s problems, I don’t have to deal with mine.

It’s not at all healthy of course. But sometimes, your own life is just too overwhelming and you don’t really know where to start to get your shit together. There are so many times where I’d rather just stay in bed, not face whatever the day has to throw at me. I’m not sure how people expect a person, college students especially, to juggle everything on their plate and be okay mentally and emotional.

There are so many days where I have to remind myself to be social with my peers, to start/finish homework, study for this quiz or that test, to go to the gym to be healthy, to give my family and friends attention, to remember to eat while being so busy, to drink a fair amount of water, take care of things in the house, clean, run errands. Some days I have to manage everything in a single day, other days I can split of the tasks. But it can all still be very consuming. Even the littlest things like remembering to eat and drink water can be extremely difficult when there’s so much to do and so little time.

It’s easy to lose your head when you’re all over the place. Almost every day that I wake up, I mentally set up a guide of what I need to get done for the day and contemplate if I have time for a nap I desperately need. I’m thinking about a nap before I’m even out of bed in the morning. Not exactly exciting but it’s something to look forward to, a reward of sorts. The past few weeks have been extremely difficult. I feel like I’m just going through the motions. Not exactly caring about or feeling anything in general. While I’d rather do nothing, instead I struggle through school work, force myself to go to the gym, try to focus on anything that keeps be from thinking too much.

Night is the most difficult. I’ve always been a night person. But it’s also when everyone’s asleep and there’s no one and nothing really present to keep me distracted anymore. I find myself constantly thinking about those important to me and how easily those relationships can change. How afraid I am of them changing. All the things in the future that I haven’t given much thought to, like a career. And especially how I can catch up with school after missing an entire semester (not by choice).

It can all easily build up and you just lose sight of why you’re doing what you’re doing, you know? It helps so much to just escape sometimes. To step away from everything then return to it with a new perspective or maybe even a game plan for everything. Coming back with fresh eyes can really make a difference. When you’re too involved in something, you’re exactly that. Too involved. It’s hard to see the forrest through the tree (Yes I know, another cliché. I’ll never stop). But if you just keep going, eventually you’ll reach a view that made it all worth it.

Never look at escaping as a bad thing. Sometimes it’s just what you need to do in order to do what you want to do. It can never hurt to take moments for yourself to just reflect of everything. It might even put some things into perspective. Things you’re stressing over might not be so bad. Problems you have may find a way of solving themselves. Just try to remember that you’re not going to get very far when you’re too overwhelmed. I always tell myself to take it day by day, step by step and you know what? It helps. And when life becomes too much, step back and breathe. Think about what’s important and try to recall why it’s important. And if you find yourself lost still, reach out. Talk to someone about your feelings, about your day, about the weather. Just anything. It really can help even when you don’t feel like socializing. Having someone outside of everything you’re dealing with can help you see something you missed. And if those are times you feel the need to just be alone, then do that. It’s hypocritical of me but even when you want to just be alone, don’t push those that care about you away. Remember that there are people that care about you and want to see you succeed. They’re also ready and happy to help you so don’t be afraid or too stubborn reach out.

And just some food for thought, sometimes you may need an escape and sometimes you may be somebody else’s.

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