This post is about a week overdue but I haven’t been in the right mindset to write. Thank you to the readers sticking with me while I work on my shit and post inconsistently. *This is also my 100th post! WHOOP!*
I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want for my life and what my next move is going to be. All I’m really worried about right now is graduating college. After that… well, I plan on going on a road trip with my closest friend. And what an adventure that’ll be. But first, graduate.
Recently, I quit my job and I think it was a really good way to start off 2020. The environment wasn’t the best nor was it any good on my mental health. Every single day, I would come home drained. Even if it wasn’t busy that day. I had no energy to speak of, and all I wanted to do was sleep. That’s a huge sign of me falling into a depth of depression that nearly kills me to climb out of. So quitting was the best decision and immediately, I felt like a burden was lifted. I could breathe. I could finally spend time with my pup and go see my little sissy and hang out with my youngest cousin. I finally had time to sit down and really think about myself, what I want for my life, and put together a very tentative plan for it.
I am a bit stressed that I don’t have a source of income right now but I’m learning to enjoy myself a bit. All I’ve ever done is work and go to school. Never really taking some time off to just be. And I needed to. I need this period to recoup before I dive back into balancing school and work again. Of course, when I start job hunting (hopefully sometime next month), I’ll be a different kind of stressed. And that’s okay. Right now, I need to relax and get back into the mindset of school.
Aside from all the academics, I’m really excited about 2020. It may be because of my new found love for myself but I just have a good feeling about this year. I don’t really understand why. I just want this year to be a great one. Not just for me, I’m hoping to spread the positive energy everywhere I go and into everything I do.
With that being said, I truly hope everyone has an amazing year. No matter what happens, just do your best to stay positive. You attract the energy you give.